emo-ing all the time

was walking around the tiong bahru area, and then i rested at the benches near tiong bahru park. there's alot of life there. little cute kids running around (caucasians!), old folks doing some tai chi and teenagers playing soccer and stuff. got myself a piece of paper and a pen, so this what i wrote..

BEGIN WITH A NEW CHAPTER, ALL I CAN SAY WAS, IT'S TOTALLY COMPLICATED! I DIDN'T CRIED MUCH LIKE I DID THE LAST TIME WHEN I HAD SOME CRASHING BOOMBASTIC RELATIONSHIP. BUT THE THING IS, I CAN'T CHOOSE.

TALK ABOUT CHOOSING, FIRST AF ALL I MUST KNOW WHAT KIND OF QUALITIES THAT I WANT. ERM... MAYBE A HUMOROUS PERSON WHO CAN GIVE ME A GOOD LAUGHTER. OUH! AND A PERSON WHO CAN SING AND SHARE THE SAME INTEREST IN MUSIC AS ME... A PERSON WHO CAN LEND ME A HAND WHEN I NEEDED HIM. A PERSON WHO IS BRAVE TO STAND UP FOR HIMSELF AND OTHERS. A PERSON WHO IS VERY PATIENT BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY, I'M IRRITATING.

URGH! THERE ARE LIKE SO MUCH MORE THAT I REALLY WANT AND HOW POSSIBLE CAN ALL OF THESE QUALITIES HAVE IN ONE PERSON? I BELIEVE THAT THERE'S NEGATIVITY IN EVERYONE OF US. I ADMIT, I MYSELF HAVE MY OWN ATTITUDE!

RIGHT NOW, HOW I WISH I CAN FORETELL WHAT LIES WITHIN THE FUTURE. HOW I WISH I HAVE SOMEKIND OF POWERS AND I CAN GO INSIDE EACH AND EVERYONE'S BODY AND ANALYZE WHO IS THE BEST FOR ME.

[1] EVEN IF I KNOW YOU TRULY NEED ME, WOULD YOU TAKE THE SACRIFICE TO EVEN CONFESS? WOULD YOU BRING ME TO PLACES THAT I'VE NEVER BEEN BEFORE AND MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A PRINCESS? WOULD YOU MAKE A BIG IMPACT IN MY LIFE? WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY SOMETHING?

[2]SO WHAT IF YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE A PRINCESS? SO WHAT IF YOU BRING ME PLACES? SO WHAT IF YOU MAKE EVERY MOMENT A MAGICAL, THAT EVERY WOMAN WOULD DESIRE? WOULD YOU JUST GIVE UP JUST BECAUSE [1] IS JOINING THE COMPETITION? AFTER ALL THE FUN AND LAUGHTERS, IS IT REALLY EASY FOR YOU TO JUST WALK AWAY?

[3]EVEN SO IF IT'S HARD FOR YOU TO EVEN GIVE A LITTLE STEP, DON'T YOU FEEL THAT YOU HAVE TO MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE? DON'T YOU FEEL THAT YOU ARE PLAYING 2 HEARTS AT A TIME? HOW DARE YOU TAKE ME AS YOUR RESERVE!! FORGET ABOUT ME WILL YOU. YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND, SO ENJOY EVERY SECOND THAT YOU HAVE WITH HER.