a day of fun and laughter.

september 22 nd, i decided to call siti in the afternoon and ask her out. before that, went to the library to borrow some books. what pisses me is that there's no books about psychology just when i was about to read about them. why do they name the place library then? hmmpff.. i ended up with a love novel book again. well, not really a love novel lar, its something about handling a relationship with a man who are abusive. not that my ex-es are like that, so yeah

sms-ed Siti that im on the way to her house, but she was like at the Bukit Merah Interchange. so change of plan, went to Tiong Bahru instead. we window-shopped and stuff, and then moved to the Tiong Bahru Park right after that. we had a great conversation there. siti was telling me how her soccer team has been progressing, while i was bitching about my life and how i always late for school every week. pathetic? i agree!!

we were chatting and stuff, out of a sudden, my primary school friend, Elfi, appeared behind Siti! i was speechless. all i did was pointing my fingers to signal Siti that he was coming over to our place. Siti turned around, and then screeched like as if she saw a celebrity. you see, if it's not for his change of outfit and the way he looks at that time, i wouldn't compliment him 'handsome'. you see, Elfi used to wear a gangsta outfit. cigga was placed at his ear, blond hair, wears cap like some pai-kiah and toothpick stuck in his mouth sometimes. i was always against him last time, for his gangster-like looks and he talks with full of vulgarities. now he totally changed! he became more pumped-up, wears like some hot guy, no more blondie or even gold hair, and he spoke softly to us!! aaargh...

after he left, we talked about him for 5 minutes and forget about all the incidents. haha!! you think i'm gonna be serious with anybody? no way! my brother called after that. we talked to him on the phone and stuf, and Siti wanted to see my brother and the rest, so we decided to move to Henderson.

the boys, unfortunately, were late than us. just when we were waiting for them, Hidayat called Siti. i was out to know that before i met Siti, she called Hidayat. lets just say that we were planning to meet him with his friend, Hilmi this saturday. i know! exam exam exam!! but i know i will study.. haha!

the boys came, and we lent thier soccer ball to play. siti taught a little bit about soccer. i was good with dribbling, but i could not score a sharp shoot to the goal post. and right then and there, i feel like a real girlish!

went home after that. my mom asked me out to geylang. i was super on. haha. my mom got herself ready and just as we wanted to take the lift, my aunty and uncle was inside. we went to breakfast together at the Bukit Merah. chat with my aunty. halfway through, i suddenly came across this question, "you used to be a very tigress person towards your child, what made you change the whole concept and turn into someone who is calm?" i know the question is very personal, but i gotta know. i was expecting an upset expression on her face, instead she gave me a pleasant smile assuring that my question is okay to ask.

with calm expression, she answered. "i think at some point, i realised that i have to change my personal opinion about life. i always wanted to be a supporting mother to my kids." i listened to her intensely as she elaborates more. "i had a friend whose name is Sulastri when i was younger, (that reminds me of my bestie whose name is also Sulastri) i always envied her family. not that she is really rich, but her parents were super supporting. i remembered she was telling her mother that she had a crush. i was facinated by the way they spoke to each other. they seemed like somehow- you know, besties."

my aunty added more, "you know, your grandmother is a very strict mother. you cant even share some personal opinions or thoughts to her, espeacially love. or else she will get angry. that's why i always envied my friend. my teacher used to tell me, 'if you have a weak family foundation, next time when it comes to your own child, you must cut the ritual and make it better for your children. i still keep his words and try to make it happen as far as possible.

went to geylang with my aunt and uncle. we took a look at alot of stuff that has been laid for sold. but most of all, we had alot of freaking fun :)